Queen Of All’s Blog

Just before two minutes my mother and my big brother were having some arguments because he’s out all the time .. so my brother asked Dad for some money , and my father gave him .. Mom was so angry from my fathers respond and she started shouting at him , till that moment I had a big smile on my face .. but that smile disappeared when my mother shouted and told my father : ” Don’t let him go .. he haven’t studied yet , and he has been out the whole week ” .. do you guys know what was my fathers respond ? ..He said : ” let him hang out with his friends , he’s not a GIRL !! ” .. I couldn’t hear anymore so i took myself out of the room as fast as I could and came – here – to my room so I can cry !! ..

Why can’t my father and every man who thinks the same way he does just understand that we didn’t choose to be girls , I mean if I had the choice to choose me .. I definitely wouldn’t have chosen me , I probably would have chosen to be a boy , my words may surprise some of you , but it’s the truth that no girl till now in our society had facen it ..

Some of you may say : ” what’s wrong with that girl , is she out of her mind” , and I say to anyone who thinks that am crazy : ” AM NOT ” , it’s because , I know am right it’s ,.. because am sick of being humiliated because of something I have no hand in , am sick of taking my fathers silly comments , am sick of hearing him telling my Mom that he wishes she had brought us all boys .. am sick of being blamed for being a GIRL , am sick of having to hear all of these stuff and keep my mouth shut .. am sick of having to smile in his face when ever I see him , and can never tell him how I truly feel about him being my dad and how do I feel being his daughter ..

I don’t hate my father , I love him .. I mean he’s my dad I can’t help it , but as my sister once said : ” I love him , but I don’t have to show him my love ..”

I wish I can shout , so that everyone can hear me and say : ” Am a GIRL .. , is it my FAULT ?!! ”